完了？！

矛盾着该用华语还是英文。。

还是华语好了。。

我的3rd year, 1st sem， 完了。。

而我， 好像也是完了。。

短短的几个月， 过完了， 还是空空荡荡的头脑； 空荡的心情。。

学了些什么？ ~ 抄功课吧。。 哈哈。。

哈哈， 朋友说我的blog很emo喔。。

有吗？？ 偶尔吧， 我不可能永远都保持着快乐的心情啊。。

只有遇过人生的低潮， 才会知道真正开心时候的重要性。。

朋友又说我很幼稚。。

不过， 我觉得比起以前， 我成熟了很多。。 尤其是NS过后。。

（好像在自挖坑洞说自己以前更幼稚。。　哈哈。。）

朋友又说我的样子很惹人笑。。

其实他们还没看过我以前的样子。。

宅女一个；　活在自己的世界里（虽然现在还是有点）；　不是很理睬别人。。

还是一样；　NS让我改变了。。

还有我Form6时的那班死党，　真的，　他们让我改变了不少。。

那些人，　你们自己知道是谁啦。。　^^

有时候，　曾怀疑过自己，　是否该改变。。

行为上，　言语上，　举止上。。

至少在别人眼里我还是认真的，　不是那么爱玩、搞怪。。

但后来还是决定了；　不想过回以前封闭自己的生活。。

我希望自己是带给别人欢乐的人，　虽然偶尔心情还是会闷闷的，　尽量不表现出来就好了。。　别人开心，　我也会感到欣慰。。　至少能让别人转换一下心情。。

不是想说自己很伟大或是什么，　只是自己心里的一个……　心愿吧。。

但是如果有时候我办不到的话，　请原谅我。。

话说回来，　真的好奇为什么自己的心情会那么容易的被牵动。。

还是一样。。

该不该把过去都忘记，　重新开始呢？

好了，　emo一次过写完了。。　哈哈。。

明天回家咯！！！

姐姐生病赶快好起来吧。。　祈祷。。

突然很想念阿嫲。。　明天就能见到她咯！！　^^

晚安，　世界。。

心中的秘密，　还是秘密。。

at last, a rest stop..

juz came back from 'little genting', where all the couples go there to ...... ( continue in ur own words.. haha.. )

Note: time now is 4AM.....

it was somehow a crazy day.. guess everyone was juz too tension.....

another thing to take note is that our "god" came wif us too.. haha... it's great to see him outside skul compound, at least he is less 'god-like' in his casual clothes.. haha...

dinner was like a course gathering, minus "some" people who were busy and add one more which somehow is literally connected to our course.. hehe... guess who is he on ur own..

come to think of it, we're gettin less n less closer compared to our 1st and 2nd years, where we'll be goin out everywhere together n takin GBs of pics... this course is reali gettin hard on us...

so for this sem, after next week, it is officially over, minus the study weeks n exams..

wat have i done n learned? i asked..

it's disheartening...........................

but stil, we can't look back and think of what we should hv done earlier; instead, looking ahead and think of what we can do..

though easier said than done........

it's stil the need to prove to my family that they can believe in me, especially mum; i dunno whether i'll let them down onot....... =|

hwaiting!!!

as for IP, reali am short of words to decribe how i feel about it....

but, all of us reali did our best, that's one thing that im proud of our members n leader..

let's hope we'll get better next sem......

as for now, i need some sleep..........

nite world.......

smile..... =)

somehow people don't take me seriously, does it bothers me? sometimes..

but "y so serious?"

it's fun to make people laugh, i dun wanna lose my only ability..

still there

hmmm... how 2 describe...

lyrics stating a few meanings...

it can be expressing one's determination to stay the same n stay true to themselves; even though gettin pressure n despised by others.. it's a "strong" lyrics if it's interpreted dis way..

another way of seeing this is seeing a weaker part in a person.. one is lost followin reality but not their dreams, in the end, they're stil at the crossroads, not knowing where to go..

my first 'completed' english lyrics..

which way are u seeing this lyrics?

still there

standing at the crossroads

even though there's no one to light my way home

fallin endlessly

in a trance, im lost within me

crazy as it seems

standing by reality as they chase away their dreams

heartbeat gettin strong

wonderin, whether i did wrong

how can i

reach out to someone who cares

somehow just isn't there

i know, i know, i know that

you know, you know, you know

im fine

im fine?

listen i

tried my best to change my way

no matter what you say

i know, i know, i know that

people, will stay, the same

that's that

im still there

i know, i know, i know that

you ain't, gettin, me goin

your way

i am

stil there

Hectic week~~~

huh..............................................

a gasp of air taken..........

at last... 'SOME' hectic week.......

1st wif one of my lecturer.. i think im banned by him, he hates us.. haiz... but it's my fault oso, so cant blame anybody.. so MT, dun wori too much about it...

it was kinda devastating... no point crying over spilled milk though...

next wif my ODE test.......

i dunno wat to expect n wat i expect is 'bad'.....

any regrets, u may ask.. i cant reali say anything, did i do my best? but i did did my best on the last minute.. so...................

again, devastating... im kinda lost for words now, 'devastating' seems like the best word to describe my life....

it's coz of ode test that made me reali reali think that mayb i should have considered changing course.. i aint made for this.. with my stupid pea brain i cant go far anywhere in this, to make things even worse, i had my stupid laziness following me all around....!! get rid of it please!!! haiz..

will i do better in another path?? i dun wanna disappoint my mum n dad........... -.-

another hectic thing, HE presentation.......

dis i must say sorry to 'kid' coz he reali step up n did it even though he's so busy.. sorry for insisting............

my hands were practically shaking so badly when i was presenting..

my frens thought i can do well up at the stage, but it's juz waaaay crooked frm the truth; i have stage fright.. can i overcome it? i reali hope so...

my sis told me im always on cloud nine, but it's not that im happy all de time; it's coz of it seems like im always floating around, not focusing n blurring..

thx sis for showing me how wrong i am..

i should have paid more attention, n not ignoring...

i was having so many things on my mind that they're obscuring my view; where i cant see that she has her problems too.. the world doesn't rotate around me, i was too self-obsessed..

anyhow, it was quite some few sad days, after having a row with my sis... or rather being scolded by her..

i stil love her, she juz wants the best for me....

my hectic week has ended...

more to come??!

let me rest a while 1st...........

good nite everyone....

have a great day!!!

not forgetting to ~smile~!! ^.^

*the world doesn't revolve around you*