Monday, July 26, 2010

怀疑


是否怀疑过自己, 思想、行动或是决定。。?
最近对自己充满了怀疑。。
怀疑自己能不能控制心情; 怀疑自己的能力; 怀疑自己还能不能像以前那样开心。。

向来不是很喜欢搞忧郁的人, 自己却好像变成那种人了。。
其实大家都有秘密; 在于能把它保守到什么时候。。
但很确定的, 我知道的、和我的, 我会守护着。




Decisions..
im kinda scared of it now..
dilemma is makin it even worse..
hopefully i'll get over it real soon..


it has been 2 years ad, i 'lived' happily n effortlessly..
n i, now, am wondering whether i did the rite decision or choose the rite path..
somehow, i wasn't reali into physics n i took engineering?
somehow, im nothin while trying to be something?
somehow, i got carried away...
i only hoped to make my family proud, that's my only hope..
guess ppl juz dun settle with wat they hv in hands; instead of keepin them, they let go to get more; only to realise all are gone, slipping through their fingers..
i dun wanna be one of them..

but there's another saying that says to gain something, u need to let go of something..
it all boils down to the scary word again: decisions..






anyhow, somehow, i'll make sure i stop lamenting about myself n see more things that're goin around me..

laughter & smile; i need them back to spread them out..
hv u found urs?





我不是无敌的小丑
2.09am 21 july

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