怀疑

是否怀疑过自己， 思想、行动或是决定。。？

最近对自己充满了怀疑。。

怀疑自己能不能控制心情； 怀疑自己的能力； 怀疑自己还能不能像以前那样开心。。

向来不是很喜欢搞忧郁的人， 自己却好像变成那种人了。。

其实大家都有秘密； 在于能把它保守到什么时候。。

但很确定的， 我知道的、和我的， 我会守护着。

Decisions..

im kinda scared of it now..

dilemma is makin it even worse..

hopefully i'll get over it real soon..

it has been 2 years ad, i 'lived' happily n effortlessly..

n i, now, am wondering whether i did the rite decision or choose the rite path..

somehow, i wasn't reali into physics n i took engineering？

somehow, im nothin while trying to be something?

somehow, i got carried away...

i only hoped to make my family proud, that's my only hope..

guess ppl juz dun settle with wat they hv in hands; instead of keepin them, they let go to get more; only to realise all are gone, slipping through their fingers..

i dun wanna be one of them..

but there's another saying that says to gain something, u need to let go of something..

it all boils down to the scary word again: decisions..

anyhow, somehow, i'll make sure i stop lamenting about myself n see more things that're goin around me..

laughter & smile; i need them back to spread them out..

hv u found urs?

我不是无敌的小丑

2.09am 21 july