有个女孩叫feeling

嗨！！ 好久没写部落格了。。
LI第二个星期顺利完成了。。 还真是蛮累的， 开始佩服家人和那些做了几十年工的人。。
上司不错， 很愿意教我。。 只是我一直做到钓鱼， 抓了好 几只的大鱼了。。 哈哈。。
接下来的几个星期加油吧， 大家。。

终于把我上个月买来的其中一本书读完了。。
《有个女孩叫feeling》， 如往常一样， 藤井树又写了一个‘悲哀’故事。。
我知道现在才读这本， 有点out了。。 哈哈。。 不过还有几本蛮out的等着我去读。。 嘻嘻。。
这本， 让我思考了一下。。
主角对女主角， feeling的喜欢， 就只是纯粹的迷恋。。 是真实故事， 藤井树的好朋友的故事。。 他喜欢她足足有六年之久。。 真的能暗恋一个人这么久吗？ 毕竟， 由那本书形容的来看， 男主角真的就这样被她迷住了。。
最后六年来， 他们一直徘徊在喜欢、说与不说之间。。
让人（我）心烦的是： 她其实也喜欢他， 为什么一直逃避他； 就因为她有些怀疑， 所以放弃了。
故事的最后， 女主角发现她其实是喜欢着他的。 藤井树很果断的停顿在这里， 因为他说他的朋友知道了， 但还是让事情停留在那样的位置。。
爱情是矛盾的； 不知道藤井树是为了让书卖的好， 所以把它写得很唯美， 哈哈。。
对我来说， 喜欢与相处却是两回事； 喜欢是最初的阶段， 能不能让它长久还是未知数。。
所以， 藤井树的这本书， 最终还是一直一直徘徊在最初、最开始的唯美阶段； 或许一旦进入了下一个阶段， 故事就不那么单纯了。。
不过我还是相信着相处是能适应的， 而我会想把它变得唯美。。 =)

哈哈。。 以上纯粹个人想法。。 一本完成； 攻下一本。。 嘻嘻。。

nado bogoshipta 是‘我也想你’.. =)

L.O.V.E.

oh no ppl, im not in love.. haha.. (i wish i was.. =.=)

all kinds of love, take your pick; oh, the wrong one? have a new one..

unlike buying things, this is one thing u can't refund..

ok, u're wondering, y would i be talking about this..

me myself is also totally clueless.. again, =.=

since we're on this topic..

well, my view, love (boy girl thing) is somehow overrated..

mayb n most probably it's cause im not in love..

but seriously, some ppl are totally overrating it, seeing it as the top most priority..?!

i mean, come on lar, it's not like u can't live without it..; yes u can't if u're considering all the love: family love, frens love, dream love, passion love.. it's just a small part in the big picture of love..

they're a sum up of happiness; if u lack one of them, u won't die; u'll just lay around, wondering aimlessly in life,quivering in pain, feeling everyone else in the world owe u a hundred thousand, u'll have asthma, short of breath, pain in the chest, feel stupid, feel like dying....

so NOT!!

get a grip on urself, get a nice cup of Starbucks, sit down and enjoy the awesomeness of Kpop.. - Jpop/Englishpop/Cpop/Mpop/Indopop/Thaipop or watever 'pop' u wan..

coz L.O.V.E. is just overly-overrated.. (for some ppl)

relax.. 'smell.....' =D

but im looking forward to be in love; im pathetic......

"Journey"

It’s been a while.. since I’ve talked to my heart..

Insane, u may say.. haha.. it’s my way of investigating how I’ve been doin..

I’ve always been afraid.. to show my trueself; afraid that others wont accept me..

But, i’ve found out that, even if im a dork n a nerd, there’s stil ppl standing by me.. haha..

To all my frens, sori if im a nerd n dork…. I’ll always be one, be ready.. haha..

“Journey” – 1 year..

For our journey, I guess it’s appropriate to say that I’ve learned a lot.. in terms of knowledge n people..

The last week was scary...

It was where I know that I dun hv wat it takes to succeed.. im a quitter.. it was mind opening, extremely.. at least I’ve discovered my weaknesses, so it’s not a bad experience after all..

But I stil hv tones of complaints showering………. Anyhow, wateva…… it’s over!!

这个journey, 我看到了形形色色的人类。。 哈哈。。

人类， 真是奇特啊。。

不一样的destress方法， 也看到了。。

我明白那种压力， 也会试着对待。。

只是， 那个眼神； 真的让我改观了。。

人类。。 原来不过是这样啊。。

总之， 又有一些经验和收获收进脑袋了！ =)

小时候常想， 我们家很穷吗？ 想买的东西爸妈为何不买给我； 买给我都是因为我吵到要死似的才让步。。

长大了， 发现不是因为我们家穷， 而是爸妈不想宠坏我们。。 妈妈一直都要我们知道什么是需要的， 而不是想要的， 不能浪费。。

谢谢你们， 让我学了人生重要的 一课。。

I love you!!

Spread the love.. <3

*That Woman* is me?

to prove urself?

一直担心着， 想证明自己并不是没有用的。。

现在的我， 怀疑自己了； 太过于证明自己反而会失去自己吗？

还是一样的老烦恼； 人家看到我就会想起“幼稚”吗？

想摆脱 幼稚但还是不想长大， 哈哈。。 矛盾呢。。

我是没用的吗？ 很笨吗？

咳。。 或许我还是没办法证明自己了。。

自相矛盾， 并不是好事。。

side story:

haven't cry for so long like 2day... u guys must think im weird... haha..

one of my favourite couple in We Got Married has juz left the show..............

Yonghwa Seohyun forever!!! <3

简单的幸福

blogging to me, is a very tiring work.. yet relaxing..

haha.. how so? u ask..

tiring as i've always chose to blog during midnite, n it's eating up my energy, bits by bits..

tiring as i need to pour out all my emotions n feelings and thoughts.. to do justice to u guys that're reading my blog.. for that, i need to be honest; not only to u guys but also myself..

relaxing.. i get to say wat i wan.. all at once.. haha..

well mayb not all, yet it's 'all' that's been covering my thoughts..

i went home, again, dis week..

was thinking of doing my work at kl, but knowing i wont do much anyhow, decided to go back..

at least i'll get to go church..

im not sure whether u guys get the same feeling as mine, but every journey back home never fail to overwhelm me; n by everytime, i mean EVERYTIME..

i get new feelings and findings, everytime..

starting wif small exciting things:

my little tortoise's getting bigger!! huge!! he's bullying my sis's (long long); he always eats up all the food and left little long long hungry, that's y she's not growing as well as him.. bad little tortoise.. but long long is juz too timid n shy.. she's always afraid.. haha..

i guess next time im back home, they'll grow even way bigger...... wow....

i have a plan............

plan.... for future, i guess?

suggested my plan to mum, n she approves!!

mum was always the one who plans for me; don't get me wrong n don't judge her; i believe her with my life and i know she wans the best for me..

it's juz that im trying to find my own way in the meantime..

my plan was planted deep down even b4 i chose my current path, though there's not much high hopes in this plan..

it kind of struck me when mum suggested i go further higher in my plan..

felt like crying when she said:" no matter what u do, i'll always be happy for u."

awwww.. mum, you killed it.....

feels like having another hope amongst heartbreaks now...

i'll work harder... i promise....

anyhow, God will lead me to where He wans me to be.. im not worried..

i dunno but it seems like im having a tough sem now...

seems like we get all the pressure and stress, yet we learn nothing..

is this the way it's supposed to be...??

there's reali no choice but to go through it with gritted teeth..

endurance.........?

i get white hairs everytime im stressed; apparently im getting a lot more than usual nowadays.. hmm.. not a good sign...

slightly depressed now, caused another favourite couple of mine, YongHwa & SeoHyun from "We Got Married" is leaving the show.. after Jokwon & Gain!! im gonna miss them.....

haha.. ignore me, will you... thx.. ^^

now for my 'chinese' feelings.. =)

简单的幸福：

之前， 一直希望自己有能力些； 我想让爸妈拥有更富裕的生活， 若可以，将来给他们更大的房子， 无忧无虑的生活。。

只是， 这次回去， 是老了吗？ 感慨特别多。。

单独和爸妈在车里， 看着他们的背影， 突然好想哭。。

什么时候， 时间就这样飞过了。。

那时候的我， 只想着一直一直呆在他们身边； 不需要豪华轿车， 不需要大洋房； 只要在一起就好了。。

我领悟了； 其实幸福很简单。。

我只想抓着现在的幸福， 之后的事， 再说吧。。

幸福， 真的是很简单。。 =)