haha.. how so? u ask..
tiring as i've always chose to blog during midnite, n it's eating up my energy, bits by bits..
tiring as i need to pour out all my emotions n feelings and thoughts.. to do justice to u guys that're reading my blog.. for that, i need to be honest; not only to u guys but also myself..
relaxing.. i get to say wat i wan.. all at once.. haha..
well mayb not all, yet it's 'all' that's been covering my thoughts..
i went home, again, dis week..
was thinking of doing my work at kl, but knowing i wont do much anyhow, decided to go back..
at least i'll get to go church..
im not sure whether u guys get the same feeling as mine, but every journey back home never fail to overwhelm me; n by everytime, i mean EVERYTIME..
i get new feelings and findings, everytime..
starting wif small exciting things:
my little tortoise's getting bigger!! huge!! he's bullying my sis's (long long); he always eats up all the food and left little long long hungry, that's y she's not growing as well as him.. bad little tortoise.. but long long is juz too timid n shy.. she's always afraid.. haha..
i guess next time im back home, they'll grow even way bigger...... wow....
i have a plan............
plan.... for future, i guess?
suggested my plan to mum, n she approves!!
mum was always the one who plans for me; don't get me wrong n don't judge her; i believe her with my life and i know she wans the best for me..
it's juz that im trying to find my own way in the meantime..
my plan was planted deep down even b4 i chose my current path, though there's not much high hopes in this plan..
it kind of struck me when mum suggested i go further higher in my plan..
felt like crying when she said:" no matter what u do, i'll always be happy for u."
awwww.. mum, you killed it.....
feels like having another hope amongst heartbreaks now...
i'll work harder... i promise....
anyhow, God will lead me to where He wans me to be.. im not worried..
i dunno but it seems like im having a tough sem now...
seems like we get all the pressure and stress, yet we learn nothing..
is this the way it's supposed to be...??
there's reali no choice but to go through it with gritted teeth..
endurance.........?
i get white hairs everytime im stressed; apparently im getting a lot more than usual nowadays.. hmm.. not a good sign...
slightly depressed now, caused another favourite couple of mine, YongHwa & SeoHyun from "We Got Married" is leaving the show.. after Jokwon & Gain!! im gonna miss them.....
haha.. ignore me, will you... thx.. ^^
now for my 'chinese' feelings.. =)
简单的幸福：
之前， 一直希望自己有能力些； 我想让爸妈拥有更富裕的生活， 若可以，将来给他们更大的房子， 无忧无虑的生活。。
只是， 这次回去， 是老了吗？ 感慨特别多。。
单独和爸妈在车里， 看着他们的背影， 突然好想哭。。
什么时候， 时间就这样飞过了。。
那时候的我， 只想着一直一直呆在他们身边； 不需要豪华轿车， 不需要大洋房； 只要在一起就好了。。
我领悟了； 其实幸福很简单。。
我只想抓着现在的幸福， 之后的事， 再说吧。。
幸福， 真的是很简单。。 =)
