人生？

人， 活在自己的世界； 让自己有自由的空间；

但关闭自己并不是好事。。

人生短短里头；

想想有几次让自己真正快乐过？

何时真正为家人着想过？

有没有为梦想打拼过？

甚至， 有没有梦想？

很庆幸自己的生活环境不错及拥有家人的疼爱；

没经历过非常痛苦的经验； 但一直以来所经历的可以说是奇特的感觉。。

每个家庭都会有些问题， 但大家都肩并肩度过了。。

活得越久， 看得越多； 我终于感受到了。

人， 活在回忆里， 是愚蠢的举动。。

从回忆里抽出， 得到的是现实； 倒不如一直活在现实里。。

人生短短；

为何不选择让自己快乐呢？

为何不活得有意义呢？

过于封闭自己会让自己发霉的， 别人渐渐不敢靠近。。

放开自己， 给自己机会。。

仲然有些人不理会， 但只要坚持信念， 总有人会欣赏的。。

人生短短；

选择快乐吧！

2011?

the new year, 2011 hvnt dawned on me yet....

dunno y....

what's the feeling of goin thru a year without any prominent events?

bored? disappointed? dunno......

a lot of things that i've planned din go rite..

guitar class for example...

if only i can find a way to get rid of my laziness!!!

got my results.. happy with it coz i got more than i deserved..

after going out wif my ji muis later then i realised i hvnt been trying hard enough..

(pao, it's u.. hehe.. great results btw, congrats ya.. ^^)

what have i been doing these two years previously??

slacking and playing all the way?

i reali should step up though.. there's not much time for me to grow up; mentally i mean, physically not reali possible..

thus, changing to be better in every way i can..

for a start, not neglecting veges in meals.. hopefully can get healthier..

goin home was always a new experience for me; despite the old home n same ppl..

my short 3 weeks holidays were great as usual..

it amazes me juz how simple happiness can be..

a simple joke; a simple laugh; a simple meal; a simple moment; many more..

my family will always be my greatest treasure..

and God will always be my greatest guide thru life..

another simple happiness guidance:

enjoy every moment u have while u still have breath..

it's a blessing to be alive..

somehow, i missed seeing sky full of stars..

my wish for 2011: a nite on the beach, enjoying the sky full of stars..

Have yourself a merry little Christmas

Composer - Hugh Martin

Introduced by Judy Garland in 1944

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.

Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now.

recorded this since im free at home..

the piano chords r a bit weird coz i played it thru trial n error method.. =P

it's not perfect.. anyhow, juz to wish u guys Happy Christmas!!

happy holidays!! ^^

it's another year..

坐在电脑前， 心情顿时很复杂； 思绪错乱， 一窝蜂涌上头脑。。

首先， 正式宣布我的5th Sem已经完成了； 不过还不知道是不是顺利的过了。。 哈哈。。

还是一样那句， 迷糊的半年。。

sorry mum, for letting you worry about me.. im trying my best; to squeeze out the best in me, it's not ur responsibilities; so please don't worry.. ^^

说到家人， 一直有种遗憾； 好像自己一直不能为他们贡献些什么。。

因为连自己都管不了自己， 很对不起他们。。

恨自己的长不大； 恨自己的无能； 恨自己不够爱他们。。

我的家。。。

im proud of them.. proud to be one of them..

让我思绪错乱的：

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=181668725179222&id=754228704

刚开始读时还以为是开玩笑的， 但， 他真的走了。

我真的很、很、很疑惑。。

为什么会有这种人？

不是要鄙视还是看不起他； 而是真正的打从心底感到疑惑。。

blinded by love??

认为自己一直长不大， 可是， 他。。

他跟我同岁。。

思想竟是如此..?!

让我感到难过的是， 世界上和他有同样思想的人还有很多。。

只有主能救他们了。。

to all homo sapiens:
get ur priorities in life right!!
it's frustrating to see people so lost; even way lost than me..!!
love yourself and those who really love you..

又一年了； 我又做了什么？

知道吗？ 我在逃避； 因为我知道结果。

Outdated post - 13th Nov

listening to Sarah McLachlan's Angel..

my trip back home last week leaves me wif lots of 'feel'..

haha.. wat 'feel'? u may ask..

i dunno, hard to explain.. i'll try..

the feel of happiness while enjoyin my mum's cooking;

the feel of satisfaction to be wif my family, even by juz watchin tv and laughing together;

the feel of sadness to see grandma in pain when her sickness strikes suddenly;

the feel of realizing how small i am in helping, effort and ability wise;

the feel of emptiness when all i get in my sms inbox are ad-smses frm maxis and hotlink;

the feel of regret when i din touched any book; (except Facebook)

the feel of anger when i slept til noon everyday, wasting those precious time;

the feel of consolation when mum n 2sis tried to calm me down when my nerves are gettin to me;

the feel of awesomeness to hv some decent meals after all these while of 3.60/3.90 meals;

the feel of 'glee' juz to be at home........

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much, much more feel which i cant describe..

as we get older, feelings get more and more significant, hard to ignore juz how they make an impact in ur heart..

seems like yesterday i was juz

18: enjoyin the time of my life in NS, and

19: nervously gettin ready for stpm, and

20: entering U and going thru orientation week..

somehow i gotta admit that my enjoyable life stops at 20..

people always says uni life is the best time, i hv my own opinion for dat: it's not..

mayb it's coz of my course..

the only exception was my coursemates and the people i meet..

im stil having doubt for me choosing this path.. bio is stil better for me..

nevetheless, there's no point goin on and on twirlling around, i should juz put it down n stop bothering mum.. it's not fair to her.. i noe..

uni life has the worse effect on my health; while wat i conclude from this is dat i lack: self control, discipline and determination..

uni life anyone?? i'll exchange it for something with great value of money..

but i'll most probably regret later on.. haha..

i found my diaries when i was goin through my old stuffs..

childish, is wat i use to describe it.. hahahaha...

but i can see me growing up page by page; i've been on it for more than 5 years!! without me noticing..

why'd i stopped? i guess technology overcame it.. i had my laptop.. then there's blog..

but honestly, my diary pages are more real, i was true to myself..

im not sayin my blog posts aren't real, but rather there're some feelings that i kept concealed..

another thing that i notice is that there's more happiness between the diary pages those past years compared to now..

the phrase "growing up happily" seems like a fairytale after all, as problems come with age..

haha... here i am, complaining like an old grandma..

i should stop whining... i hate it too when ppl do dat..

i should stil keep some hopes..

i should concern more about my family and friends..

i should stop dreaming..

i should.....

i should...

i should.

i should start studying........!!!

note to self: i should start my diary entries again..

people don't always practice what they preach