抛物线 - 蔡健雅

我確實說　我這樣說　我不在乎結果
我對你說　我有把握　成功例子好多
人們虛假又造作　總愛得不溫不火
我們用真心就不會有差錯
我沒想過我會難過　你竟然離開我

＊愛沿著　拋物線
　離幸福　總降落得差一點
　流著血心跳　卻不曾被心痛消滅
　真真切切

　青春的　拋物線
　把未來　始於相遇的地點
　至高後才了解
　世上月圓月缺只是錯覺＊

我好想說　我只想說　我不要這後果
可是你說　相對來說　走開是種解脫
當初親密的動作　變成當下的閃躲
感情的過程出了什麼差錯
我沒想過我會難過　你終於離開我

愛沿著　拋物線
　離幸福　總降落得差一點
　流著血心跳　卻不曾被心痛消滅
　真真切切

　青春的　拋物線
　把未來　始於相遇的地點
　至高後才了解
　世上月圓月缺只是錯覺
至高後才了解　世上月圓月缺只是錯覺

我很喜欢的一首歌。。

心情， 似乎被它操纵着。。

许愿。。

望着天空

许愿着

愿望还是真实的吗？

我累了

怀疑

是否怀疑过自己， 思想、行动或是决定。。？

最近对自己充满了怀疑。。

怀疑自己能不能控制心情； 怀疑自己的能力； 怀疑自己还能不能像以前那样开心。。

向来不是很喜欢搞忧郁的人， 自己却好像变成那种人了。。

其实大家都有秘密； 在于能把它保守到什么时候。。

但很确定的， 我知道的、和我的， 我会守护着。

Decisions..

im kinda scared of it now..

dilemma is makin it even worse..

hopefully i'll get over it real soon..

it has been 2 years ad, i 'lived' happily n effortlessly..

n i, now, am wondering whether i did the rite decision or choose the rite path..

somehow, i wasn't reali into physics n i took engineering？

somehow, im nothin while trying to be something?

somehow, i got carried away...

i only hoped to make my family proud, that's my only hope..

guess ppl juz dun settle with wat they hv in hands; instead of keepin them, they let go to get more; only to realise all are gone, slipping through their fingers..

i dun wanna be one of them..

but there's another saying that says to gain something, u need to let go of something..

it all boils down to the scary word again: decisions..

anyhow, somehow, i'll make sure i stop lamenting about myself n see more things that're goin around me..

laughter & smile; i need them back to spread them out..

hv u found urs?

我不是无敌的小丑

2.09am 21 july

又一个无题

每次写blog得时候总是感觉心情不好的时候， 为什么。。

一直有事烦心， 为什么会被别人牵动着情绪。。

我最讨厌的就是对自己不诚实， 假惺惺的人； 而我， 好像渐渐变成那种人了。。。

不要啊。。

很想很想一直守护着家人， 可是我能力有限， 能做的不多。。

多希望自己变成能让他们依靠的人。。

多希望事情能一snap fingers， 就能迎刃而解。。

可惜事实并非如此。。

但我知道主会帮助我们的。。

我要为自己而活， 为家人而活。。

家人， 朋友； 我会珍惜你们。。

不能活在过去， 地球转动的同时， 向前看吧。。

~my Cameron trip~

well... i expect this post to be a long one, hopefully i can keep it short den..

i actually told de girls that i may not be joining them coz i had things 2 do during dis month..

but then i got a call n kinda got scolded n forced by annie to promise i'll go....

den the story begins...

it's a pity wanching cant join us.. but alas we cant compromise to each n every1's time n date but to follow majority's time... we're reali sori wanching.... =(

well.. we started off on tue 7am frm malacca, reached bukit jalil around 9am..

little did we noe our nightmare started when we bought our bus ticket to CH on 10.30am..

the bus came late..

there's the leak frm de side,

n the worst of it all, the air-cond went on n off every 10 min....!! gosh....

crazy trip to the top, we stayed in the bus for almost 6 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

luckily aaron had pills.. haha... to prevent car-sickness... or in this case bus-sickness.... or whatever it's called...

if not i think he'll pengsan... n ben mayb oso will... haha....

at long last we reached Tanah Rata bus station..

coz our apartment auntie was waiting for us, we only managed to see tour packages frm a company, den we signed up for it d....

rm88, no matter how we recount it later, it's stil very not worth it... but what to do, at least we noe what to do next time....

*Guys, if u wan to find more tour packages, dun signed up directly at the small counter after u reach Tanah Rata bus station.. find some time to walk up the shophouses, there's more tour companies along the way.. after that baru make ur choice..*

although we had a rough day, our apartment welcomed us with 'open arms'.. literally...

and the auntie was totally totally nice!!!

we told her we din have enough stuffs to do steamboat n wanted to buy some (luckily we din!!!), she gave us some of her things n oso her home-grown CHERRY TOMATOES!!!! (my favourite!!)

she even gave us a lift back to the bus station when we're goin back... (we stayed in Brinchang)

totally loved the apartment...

with wifi, but none of us brought laptop;

astro, aaron was thrilled... haha.. n oso mok, coz got her 'astro preview'... wahahahahahahaha... (some inside joke)... mok, dun angry ya.... =)

extremely clean n complete with gas n cooking equipment, cups, bowls......................... a lot more...

our first dinner there is SCARY!!!!!

we bought to 'much' (using 'much' as our food was totally uncountable) things.....

5 bags of hotdogs + 1 big packet of crabmeats + 1 big packet of chicken meatballs + 1 bag of glassnoodles + auntie's stuffs + cherry tomatoes.......

im scared of hotdogs now.....

at last we decided not to waste food, n we had some 'gambling' goin on.... haha....

those who lost were forced to eat....

annie was our champion!!!! followed by ben with his glassnoodles.. congrats... =P

our 2nd day's tour was hectic...............

we were running frm place to place... n im totally not lying..

some places were amazing....

i did enjoyed myself, although it's a bit expensive...... =|

but in the end, i think it's not the money dat matters.......;

or the tiring bus ride......;

or the leaking window.......;

or the crazy wheather....; =P

i reali had a lot of fun with my frens..... n that compensates it all.....

all of us were always busy wif skul n stuffs, it's hard for us 2 get together like old times, im glad i went wif them.....

it seems like we had fun too even by just sittin there on the couch, watchin astro.. (aaron had fun, i noe, haha..)

i miss u guys already..... hopefully there'll be another trip soon la ya...

c u soon when i go back mlk... =)

thx every1 for makin it happen:

annie

mok

siau

pao

aaron

ben

u guys are awesome!!! =)

朋友, 是个很奇怪的东西..

很久不联络, 见面还是感到那么温馨;

算是有见面的, 却还是像陌生人一样;

另一种更极端的, 曾经那么熟, 一个转身, 自己被杀了也不知道, 甚至于完全不知道他在想什么..

朋友, 若我说过或做过什么让你不爽的话, 我慎重的道歉, 我不是故意的....

我是真的很想维护及珍惜我们的友情...

姐妹们和好朋友们, 你们是除了我家人之外的人, 让我能最自然, 不做作(还有丑陋)的表现自己..

谢谢你们出现在我生命里....

已经渐渐地看开了, 我就是我; 让别人开心, 自己也开心...